This better not be a sign of rebellions to come

So the baby is sideways. "Transverse" is the official term, but the long and the short of it is that baby is being uncooperative and is using my pelvis as a chaise lounge instead of getting head down like s/he should be.

This is not cool.

If I went in to labour now, it would be an emergency c-section. If the baby doesn't get into head-down position by the next appointment on the 21st, I'm not sure what happens - do they schedule a C? Will she try to reposition the baby? I'm not sure. It wasn't my regular doctor on Friday, so I'm not sure what's going to happen at the next appointment except for an ultrasound to confirm the transverse lie.

The sideways position explains a couple of things. First, it explains why my pelvis is so damn sore these days, and why I keep feeling weird fluttery movement down in my crotch-ial area. There shouldn't be movement there really - it should be up nice and high now, because baby's head should be down in the lady bits area. Second, It explains why I can still go almost a full work day without peeing - despite drinking normally. Baby's head isn't resting on my bladder, as s/he should be at this point. Don't get me wrong - I'm thankful that I don't get up 5 times to pee through the night! But as much as the effect is great, the cause is not.

I've been stressing about this since Friday. I know C-sections are routine, and people who've had them say they're not bad. But still. I want to deliver normally. I want the baby to have a say in his/her birthday. I want to have that rush of "this is it!" -- not a casual saunter into the OR at a pre-determined time on a pre-determined date.

If it comes down to it, whatever gets the baby here safely is, of course, fine. But really, let's just flip around and get into position so we can do this vaginally, okay? Thanks.